Monday, March 5, 2012

Reflections

We're not perfect, are we?  I know I'm not, and, no offense, but I assume you're not either.  I've got my own issues that I need to work through.  We all do.  One of the big ones, one I will probably have to deal with till the day I die, is my dislike to let things go.  I've gotten better, but there's still a lot of work to do.

As of late, I've been reflecting on my past life decisions.  Some I would do again in an instant (love you Destree!), some I wish I could change, and for other decisions, I wish I could have the best of both worlds.  I wish I could have had both options.  I guess what it boils down to is my desire to create my own life.

On the surface, that sounds fine, doesn't it? It sounds normal.  But as a Christian, it doesn't quite work out that way.  God and I don't always see eye to eye.  God's ways are not my ways.  His thoughts are not my thoughts.  (Paraphrase of Isaiah 55:8-9).  He has different plans for me.  And I'm following them to the best of my ability.  But sometimes, I want things to go my way, not God's.  That can be damaging, because then I tend to view everything through a negative lens.  I might view aspects of my life as barren when in fact they are luscious and green.

It's all about your view.  Really, it doesn't matter if your perspective is pessimistic, optimistic, or realistic, if your view is focusing on behind you, what's already happened instead of facing forward and embracing the opportunities God has placed before you, then you're not living the life God has called you to.


Personally, I need to let go of the fact that I underutilized some truly amazing opportunities God gave me.  He has now blessed me with different and better opportunities.  "Both" is not usually one of the options God gives us.


Am I alone out here?  Or does anyone else have occasional problems with letting go and letting the past rest in silence?

No comments:

Post a Comment